shaylyn

Well good morning everyone.

Today is a great day. I stepped on the scale this morning and have lost 2 lbs. That is 3 total. I know it is not a lot but every little pound counts. My goal is to be at least at 150 to 153 by the end of August. Remember I said I wanted to be at 130 but the first of December. If I can lose 8 to 10 lbs a month that is not pushing it too hard and that is making it to my goal. 8 to 10 lbs a month is 2 to 3 lbs a week. I already have lost my 2 lbs for this week. So I am doing well.  My husband wants to buy me that stair climbing thing for me to workout on for 30 minutes a day. I think I will let him buy it for me and start using it. That with my diet should make the pound melt away…. I hopeJ.

I am having a good work day. Got in late due to my TMJ physical therapy appointment, but they understand that. My co-worker and my boss seem to be in good moods and that helps the atmosphere of the office. I am always in a good mood when I am Manic… which I am right now. My Bi-polar group is starting up again on August 25^th. I can’t wait! It is nice to have people to talk to that are in the same boat you are. Not that you guys don’t help me out a lot on here… because you do.

What else to write about?  Oh, a big HUG and THANK YOU for all the support you guys have given to me regarding my husband wanting a baby.  You guys were great for not judging me and being there with great suggestions. I did talk to my husband about surrogacy and adoption. He wants the baby to be his blood so adoption is kind of out but surrogacy is still up there as the best option. I do still have my ovaries and we could, if we found the right person and could afford it, implant with my eggs and his sperm and then it would be our baby not just his baby and we could raise it together. This option will take further talking about and saving up money but I think it is the right choice for us.

 Ok, now I am out of things to write about. Have a great day everyone!

So far so good on this Monday morning. My hubby and I had you know what first thing this morning and I still made it to work on time. I love the fact that we can do it for a long time when we have the time and we can have a quicky when we need to.

My boss is having a typical Monday and that kind of affects the office but I will not let his bad start or her get to me today. I had a great start and I am going to have a great day. It does help that I am manic and I have had 4 cups of coffee. Which I am not suppose to drink when I am manic but oh well. I had my oatmeal and banana for breakfast and no snacking today.

Well here we go… my boss just came in and the day has started.

Today is much better. My hubby and I had a long talk yesterday and this is what he said: “Please don’t worry about this if it ever happens it will be a long time down the road.  There was no third party when we got married and that is the way I like it.” To me that sounds like he is changing his mind about it. Next time he says something about wanting a child I am going to bring up using a sergeant. And explain that it will be our baby just cooked in someone else’s oven.

Now if that were the only drama in my life I would be happy. But there is drama at work. I feel like I don’t exist. I feel like I am a glorified secretary for both of them. Like I am last in the chain of command and that should not be the case. She, my coworker, and I are equal. That is the way my boss laid it out to me when I started working her. But she can be such a you know what that I don’t feel equal at all. And with all the other shit I have going on in my personal live last thing I need is to feel like shit at work.

My husband and I talked about this as well. He says to just do my job and not worry about him, my boss, or her, my coworker. So that is what I am going to do. I will be myself, cheerful and happy, but not share and NOT be her friend anymore. She is just a coworker. My saying for today is “there is nothing you can do or say to bring me down.”

Ok now I think that is all the drama for now. I can’t wait until weigh in. I feel good about this week.  I have upped my diet and added exercise. I want to be 135 by December. That is my goal and I am going to do it!